Parents of last generation

Okay I haven’t posted in a while but its just because I have been busy. This post is about PARENTS

My parents and I know many other people’s parents are getting on their nerves especially when it is near our SC. Parents always think they know whats best for us but do they really? We are children of a newer generation and in a newer country. Its not that I am bad mouthing my parents fully. I know that some of the time they are correct and they do know whats best for us but I still think most of the time they are wrong. In this time, in our generation, we are born in this country and we have learnt from our experiences. We should know what is best for us now. We are grown up and should be allowed a lot more freedom.

As products of this day and age, we know that friends are important and should be a part of our lives and we know that the School Certificate doesn’t really mean anything. It is like our basic skills and my parents are racking up a storm saying that its important. The subjects that we do now almost always don’t even matter or affect any subjects that we will do in HSC’s or even in future life. They think every single test we do is important but is it really? Is some measley nonassessable task or random quiz important?

As part of the current generation of teens, I believe we get less credit than what we deserve. Our parents do not know what is going on because they grew up differently. They should understand that we are different from them and we shouldn’t be forced to grow up just like them. My parents and parents of other people are asians and they grew up in Asia where studying was everything. They don’t understand the workings of Australians. Sometimes a friend could be worth more than 100 hours of studying or maybe even some light hearted gaming. It could one day save our lives.

TBC

Fatmannz out

PMS v Testosterone

The age old problem for the guy and the girl. Girls and their PMS and the guys with their testosterone. But the problem is, girls get no shit for their PMS but guys get all the shit for their testosterone running through their veins. Why is this? They are both natural occurances but while guys don’t give girls shit for their PMS but girls give guys shit for their testosterone acting up. Does this sound fair to you?

In a couple of blogs I have seen lately, it has been bashing guys for their hormones. But what about the girls? Their hormones make them super aggressive and friggin tear up guys for breakfast. Please be fair for us guys. PMS automatically gives girls an excuse to rage at people while when guys act upon their hormones and make a dirty joke or think dirty or try to pick up a chick then its wrong. Whats with the fucking inequality?

This is not meant to be sexist. I am trying to get equality in this world. This is gonna sound like my old post but I hate it when people just say everything is sexist. I don’t think about that shit. We are all people. Doesnt matter what sex you are. You are just an ordinary human being. I hate it when people call me that unless i’m trying to intentionally say something sexist. “Fuck This Shit” is an old phrase used to disregard any Bullshit which is thrown your way. I say that to sexism and being called a sexist.

If a chick has the right to be pissy and have noone question her then why can’t guys be a bit horny as her hormones and have noone question him? Its our hormones so deal with it girls. But this is also unfair. Some guys also talk crap about other guys cause of their hormones. Relax and you’ll be happy.

I’ll write you a prescription for a chill pill

TBC

Fatmannz out

Year 10

There has been a great massive influx of people beginning to get blogs… I would like to think its because of my influence but I know its something different. There has been too much conflict and pressure that people need to relieve it even if they won’t admit it. A blog is a way of relieving the stress which is caused. Thats why I am doing it at least. There is so much pressure put on a person in year 10 that they break. I have done that a few times this year (haha one of my friends have faced many of my rages). It is so much easier to provoke me now.

I hate being so easily provoked. But i am in like a constant anger. Anything can spark me into a massive argument. I have no idea why it is so easy. Maybe I am a naturally aggressive person and I’ve been holding it in for the first 15 years of my life. Maybe its the stress… I would like to think it was the stress. Friendships and relationships have crumbled even if it was strong. Many things can shake a relationship right down to its foundations. It is a time of sadness but it is also a time of finding out who your true friends are. Those who will stick by you.

I thank my friend for sticking by me even though I have been a total idiot these past couple of months… I know it has been hard. But I can’t control my emotions anymore. Too many years of holding it in maybe. I just hope that people can change their views towards me. Too much strain maybe. Thankfully my girlfriend hasn’t faced any of this yet. I try to avoid her when i’m in angry mood which is currently more than usual. I can’t control my anger and I know its wrecked at least one friendship.

But as my friend once told me:

“A friendship which can cease to be, was never a true friendship to begin with.”

I think that is true. But everything happens for a reason so I think all of this is a life affirming step. It gets rid of all those who you aren’t real friends and it makes friendships stronger. Having people around you who you can be happy with for life is what really matters. Having friends who will be there even at your 80th birthday will be something I aim for. Friends for Life!

Thank you for sticking by me for those which have. Thank you

TBC

Fatmannz out

Betrayal and Loyalties

Wow. A lot has gone on since the last time I posted. Friendships were tested, loyalties were challenged and even new things were discovered. Thats where my topic starts. Loyalties.

I have grown up in a place where azns were rare and vietnamese were even more rare. There I learnt that loyalty and trust is worth more than any money in the world. Money can be made and lost while someones loyalty and trust can last forever. In this day and age of backstabbing and screwing around behind people’s backs, loyalty and trust is forgotten about. Where I grew up loyalty and trust were worth more than your own life. What happened to having friends who you could trust with your life? What happened to always backing your friend through thick and thin? What happened to undying loyalty to your friend that you would sacrifice yourself to save them?

I wish we could all go back to those times. Like when I grew up. Because of how I grew up, I have learnt to do everything I can to help a friend. Sometimes I wonder, would they do the same for me? I wonder would they trust me and be loyal to me? I know people think of me as crazy to have that much loyalty and trust for another human being but to them I say, “Help your friends because one day when you are in a tough situation they will help you back.” I am certainly different from other poeple because of the way I grew up because I believe in the brother kinda thing. If you get to a stage with me when I can truly consider you my brother, then your pretty much set for life. If your my brother I will do practically anything for you.

There is when the loyalty comes in. To be my brother then you must have loyalty and trust for me. I will have the same loyalty and trust for you back. But if you do ANYTHING to betray me, then I will never trust you again and DESTROY you. Trust is a powerful thing and toy with it and your a goner. Trust is earnt through good will and actions. Sometimes it will take months to develop that trust but sometimes with just one simple act.

I have trusted friends who are completely loyal to me and have complete trust in what I do. They are the ones who will do anything for me. These guys I can trust with my life. They never second guess what I do and they never show any signs of disloyalty. Even if I don’t talk to them in a few months or years, they will still greet me with open arms and have the same trust and loyalty as always. They openly express their opinions and show their backing for me. Going into a battle with ur closest and most trusted friends behind you showing their support for you is the best feeling in the world. It makes you feel like you can do anything. Sorta like Alexander’s companion cavalry. Anywhere, Anytime.

Betrayal is one of my pet hates. I hate it more than anything in the world. If you betray me, then feel my wrath. I will find you. My brothers will find you. You will DIE. Betrayal is probably the worst thing anyone can do. Its worse than even being a snitch because to betray someone you need to be at least a bit close to the other person. To be a snitch you don’t even need to know the other person. Not that I really condone snitching.

Just for everyone to remember. It is better fighting side by side with your friends rather than having your friends watch from the grandstands acting neutral. To have your friend fight by your side is greater than having a big powerful gun in your hands. With your friends you can do anything. Being by yourself never achieved anything and not being there for your friends never achieved anything. Be loyal and faithful and fly your flag up high. Show your true colours.

TBC

Fatmannz out

Left Behind

I always wonder to myself what would happen if i died. When I think about this I disregard my family because of course they are gonna miss their son/brother/grandson but what about my friends. Having close personal friends are an important thing but you begin to wonder are they just gonna betray you? Unless it happens to you, you would probably think not. You ask yourself questions which may never be answered until too late.

I have self esteem problems, I know. I always find myself asking, “Will anyone care if I died or not?” I’m treated badly (well not badly but worse than others) and get outshone by others who are more smart or caring or kind or whatever. There are a lot of guys out there better than me and by far. I’m not the sorta average guy who goes around getting unnoticed and unrecognised. I’m quite the opposite. Cause i’m fat and i’m loud I get noticed a lot, wherever I go. I’ve learned to accept being ridiculed and stuff but it doesn’t let me to stop thinking about how i’m gonna be left behind.

Would anyone really care if I died? And what would they remember most about me if anything at all? I’m lucky at any rate to have a gf at all and she’s my everything. But to think about it, who would want to be with me? I’m nothing special. I was just the first guy to have the balls to ask her out. I think this situation is common between a lot of guys. The self doubt. The misery. The sadness. There should just be no more sadness and no more pain. But life isn’t that simple. Nothing ever is. Sometimes being a good guy just means being left in the dark and unnoticed by everyone. Sometimes to do good, someone must hide.

Just Maybe. Or maybe I am wrong in the way in which I think.

Lets just say that many guys would fall into the category of being ignored and forgotten once their dead. Always dead and Always forgotten. Why should I even be alive if my life will never be remembered?

Thy Le, friend, mediocre person, ????

TBC

Fatmannz out

Balance of Power

I feel like posting a lot more often because I need to get my feelings out.

Balance of power is always a crucial part of all relationships. The power used to lie with men and they seemed to have control over the women. This was obviously a bad thing. Now we want equality between men and women. The swing of power was a good thing and about a few years ago we got it right where men and women got the same amount of power and they made decisions together. Men learnt to get along with women getting a lot more power than when they were used to. Well at least most men did.

Now, though, it seems as though the balance of power is continuing to swing where women now have almost complete control. It seems so unfair now. In my relationship now, it seems as though I have no say and when I try and get my opinion across it makes me seem as though I am at fault. It seems as though someone forgot to stop the pendulum and women have all the power. Men are so used to the fact that women are getting increasing power that they forgot to think for themselves. I just don’t think that women should have that much power.

For this people will probably call me sexist and all that crap but this is my opinion. Many people don’t even consider this possibility and just say anything that is said against women is sexist. They don’t wanna hear the case of the regular guy who wants to let himself be heard. Allowing women to have too much control is just being sexist except the roles of male and female are switched. I’m certain that this is food for thought because noone has ever thought of this before.

I hope that people will think about this and reconsider their actions. Guys need to take a firmer stance. Allow your girl to get their way but at the same time give ur imput into it. And then there are certain times when you just need to take control. We are raising a generation of piss weak guys who were trained to take the instructions of a woman. Guys need to be more assertive. Assertive but not aggressive. Balance of power is most important…

TBC

Fatmannz out

Rage Quit

Are all the good guys in the world meant to suffer like this? Are we doomed to living a life where the bad walk free and admired when us regular folk are ignored and cast away? I don’t know why but girls cant see through the fascade that other guys put up. I’m not saying that i’m the best guy around… Cause i’m not. Far from it. But just one day i wish that bad guys get put in their place. Thats the sad thing in life. When i try to let girls understand the truth about someone else it makes me seem like i’m the bad guy.

I guess it is the way it works. Us nice guys are left in a ditch where the bad guys are riding on their high horse. I know that i am not the shy kinda guy but i’m not the one who is trying to pick a fight just because someone else made a joke about my sports team. And now cause i’m getting to a level of decking the little bugga I’m trying to blow off steam. And while i’m doing that I manage to piss off one of the only person who will help me.  I know it was harsh of me to get this person involved and I feel really bad about getting this person pissed off. But I’m always thinking to myself. Why do I bother? The bad guy is always gonna triumph.

People say shit happens. But usually it just happens to me. My friend is now pissed and I’m no closer to getting any respect from that asshole bad guy. No naming names because school is gonna come down on me. Why is it so hard for me? Why does it seem like the world is against me? Why do I have to feel like the bad guy now? Girls just won’t understand. They think there is a good to ever person but us guys know that in certain people there is only bad and the fascade they put up to hide their true selves.

TBC

Fatmannz out